haha....

i cant really believe

i came back home to this...

so i guess vietnam was a chance for me to run away...

and now im back.

After a month

man...its been a long time since i last updated.... firstly cos of exams, then cos i was lazy haha ;)

my exams ended err...close to one week already, and now then i post.....haha my blog is dying...

kk, first shall go thru all the papers o.0

english was quite ok, did the compre well but i think i screwed up the essay...nvr read instructions, so finish writing already then realise that you should use the source given....=( haiz

in the same day was SS. haha. i hate my ss teacher.....he rly is an ass.... like during lesson right he dun give notes one, he teaches thru powerpoint thats super wordy, messy and he goes thru them dam dam fast...so no chance to copy... =( then after that he starts whining(sounds like) about how hes not gonna give us notes, he wants us to think for ourselves blablabla.... idiot man.... so SS i studied alot, but no content to study,so go over the same stuff over and over again... ;P

so the paper got 2 essay questions...and the things i study only cover one question lol...
....so in the end my questoin 2, which is supposed to be the shorter essay, wrote over 2 page plus, then the supposedly longer question 1 write only 1 page plus...=( shure die already....

then weekend break, on monday was chinese and chem................... ok, lets not talk about chinese ;) haha.....i studied for chinese lah, but as usual forget alot of stuff...... then at the end of the chinese paper i felt quite ok, that i would do fine....... but i know im gonna fail already. always like that one....when i feel confident abt things, the outcome is always bad....

next was chem , which im finally proud to say i think i did well...... there were lotsa questions, but all think abit more then can answer already.... but even then, the whole of section c got 10 marks, and i noe i alr lost 7 marks le...... so haha.....keeping my fingers crossed....im prepared to do badly anyway/....i always do..

i know for a fact i failed maths

on wed was physics and bio...... physics i tot i was ok, but in the end i dun think i am.... dunno how im gonna do, alot of questions actually dunno, but make educated guess or tikam.....yup...

then bio...haha bio.. i hardly studied for bio, amazingly. like, the day before study bio lah, but before that i hardly touched my notes, so when the paper came out i got dam scared... like the physics paper like that, alot of educated guesses... but the diff is that after checking with my friends i realised most of my guesses were correct...haahahah ;)

final day was lit, which was actually quite easy.....but i have another reacher that caused me to hate the subject...he gives us like 5 times the amount of notes that we actually need and will use... and most of them are repeat prints.... like, i have 6 sets of notes explaining mental retardation because one of the characters we're studying is a retard. -.- so ya... lit was quite ok..


well ,over all for everything, i felt i did quite ok... arnd an average performance ba....

then again... i've learnt not to expect too much from anything........no expectation, no loss..... so ya, im prepared for the worst already...haha

keeping my fingers crossed.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. thye jie...duh
2. TJ... initials :P
3. TeeJ...only JX calls me this... got others la...but too lame to publish...=)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. i like my height...1.74m w00ts!!
2. i can walk arnd in a jacket with Team Singapore on the back....*ego*.. :P
3. i can laugh...

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. organisation!!! my room would be tidier upside down...and i havent filed a single piece of paper since day 1 of '07 haha
2. stubborn. things i feel strongly about, don't expect me to change my thinking.
3. my weight...so light...BMI borderline le...

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. hmmmm....some place in China(father)
2. some place in China(mother)
3. kendang kerbau hospital....?

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. not wearing that jacket ever again
2. getting demoted to normal chinese
3. the little exorcist girl....

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. my handphone...for contactng ppl... ;)
2. MP3 player...my world revolves arnd music...lol
3. oxy 5....eeeee....metrosexual hahaha :P

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. reebok specs....haha
2. shorts...and underwear duh...
3. very very long hair...by my standards...

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS
1. My Chemical Romance
2. Jay Chou... the one man band...haha(dunno if this counts ornot...)
3. The Bloodhound Gang... ;)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. my shooting is dying
2. my studies are dying
3. my life is going so well

oooooooo guess guess...;)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. train almost everyday
2. pass my chinese o level
3. bulk up more....im soo skinny....omg...

THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. trust
2. understanding
3. (someone's name) ;)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO
1. lose emotionally... not surprised if you dun understand...i dunno how to describe too..
2. solve my rubik's cube...AHHHHH
3. be what i want to be...

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. listening to music
2. reading
3. shooting

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. sleep...=(
2. make my mental block go away... i have a bloody essay to write....=(
3. go safra and train

THREE WEIRD JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING
1. scriptwriter
2. professional shooter...but imposible la..=( no hope, no future
3. actor...heehee

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Australia
2. Tibet
3. Australia... :P i love the place...haha

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. marry, have kids...that kinda thing... =)
2. get my 1 minute of fame...world fame...haha *ego again...*
3. call all my surviving friends and family thank them for a wonderful life

THREE PEOPLE WHO SHOULD COMPLETE THIS SURVEY
1. yulin!! haha i sabo u... :P
2. cedric :P
3. ..amanda..=)

A - Age: 15 years, 9 days, 9 hours, 10 minutes...(not kidding, i noe my birth minute...=)

B - Band listening to right now: the bloodhound gang
C - Career future: no eye deer...

D - Dad's name: leejimhow

E - Easiest person to talk to: close friends ;)

F - Favorite song: don't you fake it, by the red jumpsuit apparatus

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: bears!! cos the worms dunt have a head to bite off...HAHAHAHA evilz...=)

H - Hometown: angmokio! ;)

I - Instruments: Feinwerkbau p700 :P

J - Job: student...duh..

K - Kids: err....no.... 0.o

L - Longest car ride ever: change to bus ba... 6 hours, from kl to spore

M - Mom's name: soh siew lan

N - Number of people you slept with: Ever? like...thirty plus..............LOL during school camp la...wad were u thinking?;)

P - Phobia[s]: failure...in life...=(

Q - Quote: "fine lor...(something evil) me lah!! fine arh!!"

R - Reason to smile: friends. =) thanks

S - Song you sang last: fire water burn, by the bloodhound gang...=) explicitlyrics...0.0

T - Time you wake up: about 6. weekends as late as i want...heehee :P

U - Unknown fact about me: im not forever happy and smiles and laughter. i get pissed and depressed too.

V - Vegetable you hate: ladies fingers...i dunno why there's this slimy coating on it...=(

W - Worst habit: i depress myself...lol

X - X-rays you've had: err....nope

Y - Yummy food: sungei road laksa!!! yeahz

Z - Zodiac sign: eehhhh...monkey on one side, lion on the other...haha

why the hell do i keep making these fucking mistakes...


im sorry...

i don't know what happened to me today

i was just so disappointed with myself...

thinking about what was going to happen to me

3 months from now



i know i was selfish towards you

i know your basic expectations of me

and today

i failed them

im sorry

..

i really wanted to see you today

yet i still...

and

i hate myself.


sorry.

and now... cos im so dam bored...

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8 a.m

2. Diamonds or Pearls? Diamonds

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? the simpsons movie

4. What is your favorite TV show? mythbusters...

5. What did you have for breakfast? red bean paste bun...

6. What is your middle name? err...thye?

7. What is your favourite cuisine? french... but eat v rarely la...

8. What foods do you dislike? cabbage

9. Your favorite potato chip? lays classic =)

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? er... i dun buy cds... ;)

11. What kind of car do you drive? imaginary car...

12. Favourite sandwich? either tujna or corned beef....hmmm..

13. What characteristics do you despise? slacking...so ok, i despise myself

14. Favourite item of clothing? err...shirt?

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? australia!!! yeah aussies rock

16. What color is your bathroom? eh... beige

17. Favorite brand of clothing? what... that i wear or that i wish could wear? err... i wear aadidas n reebok, but i wish i could wear S&K

18. Where would you want to retire to? someplace other than an old folks home...=(

19. Favorite time of day? afternoon

20. Favorite Sports to watch? soccer...duh

21. What laundry detergent do you use? err... TOPLOAD SPIN; MASTER OF MACHINE WASH... lolz..

22. Coke or Pepsi? Coke... yeah.. coke rule

23. Are you a morning person or night owl? Night owl.. weee!! eye bags here i come...

24. What size shoe do you wear? my feet size 10, but i wear 11...

25. Favourite animal? er...me?

26. Any news you'd like to share with everyone? Not yet... ;)

27. What did you want to be when you were little? cartoonist... gawd... now my drawin sucks

28. Favorite candy bar? nvr eat candy for v v long liao...=(

29. What are your favourite childhood memories? eh... what childhood?

30. What color underwear are you wearing? Not telling XP

31. Nicknames? TJ... and some super lame ones in pri sch which im not tellin...:P... plus the obvious.=(

32. Piercing? no...

33. Eye color? Brown

34. Ever been to Africa? Nope..

35. Ever been toilet papering? wth is toilet papering

36. Ever loved someone so much it made you cry? hmm.. almost cried

37. Ever been in a car accident? No, but motorbike have b4

40. What do you do most often when you are bored? listen music...

41. Bedtime? 11-12

42. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire? yulin...cos i tot i knew him but apparently not...=(

43. Last person you went to dinner with? like...lots of ppl.. chester, mark, yulin, alex, carol...and a whole lot of other ppl in the ballroom that i dunnoe...

44. What are you listening to right now? my fingers typing things on my keyboard...duh

45. What is your favorite color? red!!

46. Lake, Ocean or River? lake,cos i can stay there without fear of sunami or typhoon or tidal wave that kind of nonsense...=)

47. How many tattoos do you have? my whole body got tatoo lor...lolz...just that its skin colour...XD

48. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Eggs can't come

49. If you had one wish to make? ...right now? hai... to be able to talk to someone again...

50. Time you finished this questionnaire? 1500 hrs..

SG OPEN....

wow...

565..

even i dint expect that...

but


no matter what i did

at the beginning..

in the middle..

near the end..

i couldnt

sstop

shaking...

so

i admit

40 shots into the shoot

i gave up

lost hope of hitting anything

near 580

or 570

so when the results came out...

the sentence was already written

and

the little numbers in that spreadsheet...

that was just the full stop at the

end.



you know

i could blame it

on a hundred

different

reasons...

but im not going to

it doesnt serve

any purpose

except to

make myself feel better

so im not going to

blame my performance

on anything

other than myself

i mean

shooting is just you
and
your gun

and my gun was working

fine...

so

im gonna

move on

and

progress

i swear i will

cos





i didn't fucking train for three years for fucking nothing.

im satisfied with every aspect of my life...
except studies...
why my studies so noob one?

haiz...

oh well, at least evrything else is ok...
my trainin

my social life..

my holidays will be productive...

but i still feel sian...
oh well
at least not emo liao...
weeee

heyz...mebe i should try those quizzes...the one where they ask u questions about what ur doing now...then u answer the first thought that comes to ur head...

dunno? tryin to find it...
omg... im dam random