heyhey...

some of the high ive been feeling the past few daes have worn off lah... been going back to thinkin abt hanoi...all thanks to shanzhi's post -.- haha

lookin deeper rite, i realise my life is going quite so-so lah, some good things, some bad things. but the lousy part is that the bad things all involve the major things in my life. the good things are only the memories, the fact that i have a life, and hope ifor my future( drama rite) ...all the small useless things lah. so right now its quite screwed up...

im sort of confirmed out of ntt alr, even if i shoot 599 evrydae for the next 2 mths. cos the nov monthly shoot kena cancelled, then im gonna miss the dec one cos of holiday -.- so unless i can talk to coach or smth...byebye lor :P

so shooting out alr. on the bright side, there's 2 yrs between now and sea games, 3 between now and YOG... the only 2 comps im looking orward to for now. oh well. at least i got the jacket.

now lets look at studies!! yay. this year i got 2.84 final gpa. and thats with moderation somemore. normal standard is around 3.3, and minimum required for graduation is 2.0. so now you can see where i stand. im like in the bottom 20-30% of the cohort. yay. and so far this holiday i havent been doing any revision or what. i tell myself i AM going to work harder next year... but thats what i tell myself every year. and this year too. so its quite hopeless already lah. hopefully maintain 3 and above can liao lor.

sigh...so the biggest 2 things in my life are goner alr. yay

then after going shanzhi's blog and reading his posts, started to think what i achieved this year. come to think of it, i prob un-achieved more than i achieved. okay. i screwed studies, that one obvious... then my shooting is like... i dunno lah, no matter what i try still cannot wan. so what if i won golds in seasa and arafura...look at it frankly. those rly were pretty much worthless wins lor. to me. arafura dun even have competitor, shoot 1 also can win gold. then seasa we were the only team with 3 ppl. so sure win wan . yay.

maybe the only thing i learnt this year... and that was only at the end of this year.. that there's really no point thinking abt depressing things over and over again. some people arnd me havent realised that yet, and i hope they do soon. really. like now, no matter what's gone wrong with my life, im always satisfied and happy. im going to get kicked out of ntt soon, and no matter how this post sounds, im just facing it normally. so what if im out. to me, its really no big deal. during trainings i can shoot like 3 8s in a card and laugh it off. these kind of thing. ive wondered for awhile if i was just running away from my problems, but im not. its just not affecting me the way they used to. maybe after one year im numb already. i dont know. we'll see.

so now since i feel like it, i'll list 10 things i miss about vietnam!! in 5 installments, so it'll equal SZ's 50 :P in no particular order inspired by shanzhi haha

1. the ntt students, all of you, even those not in the 35.
2. jaywalking through 4 way junctions with no traffic lights
3. the uni canteen, and the nicest canteen guy in the world
4. talking cock in the bunks until 4 in the morning(miss this one alot alot...)
5. i'll miss shanzhi, justin, marc, chu yong, junsean and me being in the same bunk
6. thumb/finger/whatever game with all the vietnamese guys
7. homestay partner, Hoang, his singing, his screaming and his house 8D
8. VNese pho, cos singapore style doesnt stand a chance
9. all the vietnamese songs we learnt and sang
10. the amazing traffic.

haha. the list not done yet tho. will add 10 more nex time

BYEEEZZ