HOLD IT!!!

hey people
relax, im fine
just that this afternoon i felt i needed to let off some steam
dats what blogs are for what...
regarding some private stuff... dun be too nosy :)

relax, im not getting suicidal or anything..
still gonna wake up tomorrow and enjoy life
not gonna dwell on unhappy thoughts..
after all, whats the longest time you guys have seen me depressed?

but...that scissors i COULD use to slash my wrists with is looking more and more appealing...

hehz.

jus jokin lah

oh yah..i just realise that the previous post looked alot alot like a suicide note... srry if i worried you guys

untitled

i dun noe

how to start this..

but just saying that

3 months

is a long time to wait

to tell a person something.

important to you

3 months

and when the moment comes

you expect things

you shouldn't expect.

you only listen to

what you want to hear

and not what

you know you will hear.

3 months

of waiting

collecting

organising thoughts

*

and one night

is all it takes

to change everything

i was living in a dreamland for one day

and the next,

i was back to earth and lower

*

i dont know

how you feel

all i know is

i've thought about you

all this while

and suddenly droppping this on you

telling you how i feel

i know its a shock

but like i said

i expected things i know i shouldnt

and im sorry

if i was demanding

if i was too eager

cos i wanted so much

for you to understand me immediately

*

what you said that night

was like a wake-up call

and i realise

i have been pestering you

bothering you

with no regard for what you feel

and

i know

im gonna have to wait some more

maybe another 3 months

maybe another 6

maybe a year

to get back again

but just know

that im never gonna give up

that im never gonna forget

im gonna keep trying

until you forget me

or you tell me straight to my face

that its over



-TJ

15th Birthday

Very big thanks to Alex, Cedric, Yulin, Vanessa and Jasmine for waiting for me for like 2 hrs to celebrate my bdae.

thanks for the cake

thanks for the bowling

thanks especially to cedric and alex for letting me get up close and personal with the cake.

and here's the pic of the post:
uberuberuber macro/close up. yeah.

its 3am in the mornin. tmr is mon. i havent pack my equipment. i haven't pack my luggage. yeah.

walaoo... very very long never update already...so today shall be a super long post the chronicles my life these past 2-3 weeks.

kk, first thing that comes to my mind. National day!! i know 9th aug gone very long already, but onlly now then i find the time to blog. yeah

went to the padang to watch fireworks, and fireworks only. and also the airoplane fly-by. took some quite cool pics.
pro hor. actually the fireworks got more, but then got alot of smoke, so can only see about half the firework. these two were the first few ones. then got the kid's show of patriotism. hee.the flag contrast with the trees. then the last pic i know the flag is covered, but thats the point. wanted to show the flag peekin out from behind supreme court.

i think this national day was more of a sucess than others. for one, there was no super long mass display to bore people out. and the military show of force was uber cool.
apaches fly here fly there. then the jets fly past. woohoo.

woah. the guy that organise this event, by next year sure kena major promotion one.

kk, national day over. now for a isolated event that happened one day.

1. cedric bully granny
2. cedric and granny fight
3. people training stare at them.
4. cedric and granny stop fighting.
5. cedric sit down on chair with granny beside him

the stage is set. suddenly, granny decides to flick cedric. but granny misses.... granny hits cedrics eye

GRANNY FLICK CHICKY"S EYE!!!!!!

the sound it makes is amazing...like abit of 'piak' and abit of 'plop'. followed shortly by a SQUAWK... then chicky dies...

THE END